Where are u

 I still search for you in your pages and networks, and I still wonder why I still keep looking for you, knowing that your happiness is not my happiness, and your world is not your world, even if it was, for at least 5 minutes, for at least a wink and a nod and a kiss and its gone. 

I wish I could rip you out off of my skin, because I can't stand having the same scars waiting to scab and fall and heal and I still scratch and break blood and the scar never fully heals.

I wish at least another wink and a nod and a kiss and its gone, but its not. I don't care. I just want you out of my mind, without a care.

Please. Be gone.